Thursday, December 28, 2006

en blanco

acaso en blanco es casi como entre medio?
con puntos suspensivos, rayas entrecortadas, con la palabra en la boca, todo torcido,
erijido en el pensamiento? arquitectura movil que cambia subitamente: entreteniendo o estremeciendo la mente en todo cuerpo y alma -
ay caramba!

puro sentimeinto [y no te miento]

and so i post my first entry in this blog.
i want to thank claudia for her visit and stay home this past weekend. it was great to have you here right before your huge transition and big in between ... a really huge reminder = con tan solo tu presencia... you about to fly back home



but... where is home?

[gasps anxiety more questions tangles in da gut ????? unresolved stuff...this is another entry ...]

you about to fly back home

lisbon, decided to spend a few days in NY right before you took off. we received you en nuestra casa - nueva york.



yes, i now have a home - it feels like. i have finally parked my smiling/barking pelvis here in flushing, queens at least for a week or two. then back to philadelphia for my last and final semester, which means i will finally move and land in NY after may 2007!


it feels SOOOOOO good to do nothing NOW. to slow down. to be in one place at least for a little while ... for it will all begin again very soon, but this time for a last semester - which means a bigger transition > in between is around the corner ... post grad school = what? life!?!?!?!?! where? how? why? what? how much? why? with? ...


so my in between-ness is lost amongst languages and virtual spaces - more than just two...
as well as very real places spaces realities.

belive me it is quite messy flighty chaotic exotic intoxicatingly anarchic
instantaneoulsy gratifying [ i would not have it any other way!]
a structured improv that has no beginning middle or end >>>> the only end i can think of is death,
and i am not quite ready for 'it' ...

so very work in progress here
all about evolution in motion with passion action and devotion.


for me it is all about trusting the not knowing > trusting the mysterious.
this is why i am an improviser. this is my profession.

this is why i practice / teach yoga.

these choices continually remind me how to see-ing how i/me is part of a way way bigger all ...
[i get lost often & w/ pleasure = all these planes to navigate / negotiate ... i call it inhabiting the forgotten space ...]


yes i am definitely a non linear thinker or person
i am ok w/o strucuture.

often i go in circles or spirals of emotion
round and round [when not beating around the bush ... ] i move slowly but surely

i am ok w/ getting lost and losing things

non attachment!

the unbearable lightness of being!

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constant balancing and rearranging act

ah the pics that got erased remind me of the impermanence of everything
or how even what we think might not be threatened or tampered w/ so easily does not mean any thing is secure or stable. all but an illusion.


memory how it plays tricks constantly!

la mente
de mente
a mente ...


to be continued ...

noemi
actual mente en nueva york
proxima semana or so en filadelfia

siempre con el corazon en puerto rico.
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